Tuesday, March 24, 2009

What happened?




This is the day I met & feel in love with my boys























The day I officially became mom








Christmas 2008








I swear I blinked my eyes and my boys turned into men.

Please God keep them safe now that my little boys are too big for me to watch over all the time.

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Busy Busy Busy

Last weekend my husband started painting my bedroom. I love the color purple and when my husband was starting it was really pretty but after it dried it is the ugliest purple you could imagine. I asked him to stop. I was going to run to get a different color but he said let's see what a whole wall looks like since we already had 3 gallons of this color. Well it is not my favorite but the color is much better than the dirty peachy color that my room was. While he was painting my youngest son and I went to a going away party for my cousin Jason. He is being deployed to Hawaii. After that we went out to my husband's sisters house to pick up a wonderful birthday cake, she made for me. This is the cutest cake I have ever laid my eyes on!

Then on Saturday night we went over to a friends house and played Cranium. That game is too fun! I have not laughed that hard in a long time. On Sunday we celebrated my nephews 3rd birthday and the cake tasted as good as it looked. Thanks Lisa!!
My oldest son gets deployed to Iraq in a few days. So I am trying to keep my mind as busy as possible so I don't worry too much but I am also talking to him every night, telling him how much we love him and asking a million questions. I will not be able to talk to him much for the next 7 months. I am getting more and more scared everyday but I don't want him to know that. The only thing I what him to be thinking about is to keep himself safe.

Friday, March 13, 2009

Undecided

I have been at my job for 17 years. I think I am pretty good at it and very comfortable but a new higher position at my work has opened up. I think I want it but it is a lot of new learning and I'm not sure I will get the job because all the other Service Managers in the company are male and have been for the last 75 years. I don't mind the learning new stuff. For the last 2 weeks I am trying to do my job, organize the mess that was left, and learn fast what needs to be done in that position. I must say the days have been flying by. I have been going to school to one day take over that office but I thought it would be 5-10 years down the road. One minute I want the job and the next I wonder whether I want all the new responsibilities. I kinda like that I know almost everything about my current job and have set hours. 7-3:30 works out great for me because I go to school in the evenings. I am also afraid that if I get that office organized and back to functioning and my company hires someone else after all the hard work I have been putting in that my feelings will get hurt and I will quit. Or at the very least have a very bad attitude toward the company(I currently love) and any new hire. I would have to deal more with Joe Public and not sure how well I would like that but I already know most of our customers and doing more than my fair share of that job anyway. I feel like such a flip flopper. Do I or Don't I?

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

Am I wrong?

I have been debating for 2 days now and waiting for the prison to call me back(checking on visitor list). My husband's ex is in prison for killing a man while she was drunk, high on coke and weed for the last 8 years. I have kept in touch with her family for the boys and always invited them to birthdays and Christmas. After Missi went away to prison my husband and I sat down and had a talk with Sylvia and her husband that we never wanted the boys exposed to that life. They agreed! Well last Saturday she picked up my oldest son who is home before he gets deployed later this month. They were taking him out to lunch. As a surprise they took him to the prison to see her. I know that he is 19 and a man but I don't give a rip if he would be 40. I do NOT want my boys to have to or even want to visit her in prison. She didn't bother to visit them for 2 years before she even went to prison. She doesn't pay a penny in child support and never has even though she is in a work release prison because she is supposed to have a job and gets 1 weekend a month off. If I find out she took my middle son also, who needs our signature, we am going to court to have visitation rights taken away. I know if I try to discuss this with Sylvia I am going to lose my temper but if I just never invite her to family functions again. Will she do this again? I just don't know what to do. I am good friends with her other daughter Dawn maybe if I calm down enough I will call her to see what she thinks. My husband wants to cut all ties with that side of the family even though he is good friends with Sylvia's son.